I guess you can say this is my sexual awakening. By this, I mean, experimenting with phone sex, pushing the boundaries of my own sexuality.
I have lived in the same small town my entire life. Small is putting it lightly, we are right around 600 people. It's a very reserved religious community that has no place for a girl that wants more than just to be felt-up down by Ticklenaked pond (real pond outside of town) or lay under some guy who didn't have a clue what foreplay was. This town is straight missionay, sex is for procreation only, girls that get on top, or take it from behind are declared whores and sluts. This girl, this fiery red head has never fit into this town, never will.
I am not only an outcast, I am the outcast here. I shyly suggested to my boyfriend at the time that we try something new, that I tie him up and blind fold him. Not only did he turn me down, he gossiped about it around town after broke up with me. Now I get hit on by drunken married men and whispered about behind my back by their wives.
I lost my virginity early to a fisherman passing through...
I crave sexual excitement, to push the envelope, to see where my sexuality ends and I begin. I have only had passionate and sometimes kinky trists with leaf peepers (tourist that come to see the leaves change in the fall) and men who come from the big cities to fish in the nearby lake. I lost my virginity early to a fisherman passing through, staying at my parent's motel. He was so mature, so gentle with me. I fell a little in love and looked forward to him returning every summer, 'till he just stopped visiting. Maybe his wife caught on, or maybe he found another young girl to seduce in the back of his pick-up truck, after I got too old.
I got to explore my deviant side with a couple once, peepers traveling through town, who stopped for lunched and decided I was on the menu. I've never told anyone this little secret of mine, it's been so dirty just to remember, let alone talk about it. She was extremely petite but dominated her husband to please me. It was the most exciting thing I have ever done. Having him on his knees, licking me, while his tiny little wife dictated his every move. I fantasize about it often, thinking about what if I were his wife and he were mine to play with, like a toy. I find it extremely hot.
I want to know what it feels like to be violated.
There is so much out here in this world that I haven't experienced, anal sex being at the top of the list. I want to know what it feels like to be violated. Thinking about being bent over, bracing myself drives me wild. I know, it's dirty right?
I also want to use a strapon, I saw one once on a website. To use it on a girl, or even better yet, on a guy, would be amazing. I know I am submissive by nature/nurture, but the thought of really dominating a man, drives me crazy. Thrusting my hips, oh the power, it must feel amazing.
I am also quite curious about how double ended dildos work, I saw a movie once where two girls were pushing back on each other using one. It got me so wet, just a blip of a scene and I masturbated thinking about it for months. I think half of the excitement was that the girls were doing it infront of a bunch of men, like sex slaves. I could so easily slip into the BDSM world as a sex slave and be lost forever.
I want to experience it all...
Anyways, that's me. I hope you will call, and we can both push our sexual limits, learning and feeding off of each other. I look forward to talking to you. I want to experience it all, so don't be afraid to share your secret fantasies with me.